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I’ve been sick. Really sick. It has not been good. but I’m better now, and the time away has given me a whole lot to write about.  I lost like 3 lbs on saturday, really not the way I wanted to lose it, cause I couldn’t work out. I like working out.  I had to check my facebook page cause my sister in florida had surgery and my niece was updating her progress and I realized how much more free I am here.  I think that is the best part.  I can say what I want and feel how I’m feeling and no one here judges me. I think in some ways that is sad cause the people on my FB are family and people I’ve known since kindergarten, so it should be the other way around, right?  Does anyone else feel like that?  As far as my diet has gone, I could actually eat today, but I didn’t overdo it.  Going to get back to working out tomorrow, really looking forward to it.  I think I found a long lost sister of mine here, her name is Paula, and she believes shopping is a contact sport too! So, welcome to the family, Paula, we use food as currency, and we’re worse than the mafia, you’re one of us till you’re dead.:) Speaking of which, my sister Jessie is new to buddyslim, so please don’t be shy, she’s friend poor right now, but with your help she could be sporting a full roster.(thats some southern humor folks, I’m here till next week) Seriously, she’s a gorgeous person, outside and in.  Ok, I gotta go, I hope everyone has a great week. Remember, You Are Fabulous!!

Well, it has happened. I gained this week. But surprizingly, I’m not too down, since it has to happen sometime.  I hate that I let the wildcats down in my second week. I’d like to blame this on my little red friend that is visiting me, but I have to accept the fact that I tanked a few days last week.  See what happens when I don’t blog? I’m becoming dependant, and you are all enablers… I supposed if I’m going to have a problem, this would be the one to have.  I’m spending the day with my sister today and tomorrow. We are looking up “black friday” stuff today, and going to see a movie tomorrow. I’m excited, I know its chidlish, but I’ve never been to see a movie on the day it premeired.  We are planning our attack for black friday. I have 3 sisters and my mom  and a niece that I usually go shopping with, but we’re down two this year.  We plan black friday like we are going to war. We keep in touch via cell phones or walkie talkies.  First we plan, marking up sales papers like enemy coordinates, then when we arrive, we position everybody. I usually get something you have to fight for, and so does my sister jessie. I’ve got mad out manuvering skills and Jessie is our muscle. Seriously, I’ve seen the girl pick up a fridge and chunk it. Lacey is mean, but she’s prego this year, so she’ll have to get something easy.  My mom is a master of manipulation. Let someone put down that set of towels, or even let the thought cross their mind that they don’t need it, she’ll have them talked out of it in about 3 seconds. I know I sound crazy, but I love the thrill of the hunt. We have alot of fun. Maybe I can get some excercise out of it this year. Ok, I gotta go plot, but I want to wish everyone a happy day, and a great weekend. And if you see us coming next friday, please get out of our way, cause we don’t want to hurt you….:)

Ok, Thanksgiving is coming up, and we all know what that means. Food, food, and more food. But there are alot of people for whom Thankgiving is just another day to be hungry.  So When you pick up those groceries for your meal, be sure to try and pick up something for your local food bank, or any other social group.  My favorite is the Domestic Violence Prevention group. I’ve been volunteering for them since I was a kid, and this time of year is really hard on these families.  Being seperated form your spouse or parent is hard, even if that person is mean to you.  This time of year is when most women will go back to an abusive spouse and are more likely to stay with an abusive partner because of the percieved stability of the home or the want to be normal.  Who could resist someone who tells you “I’m sorry, it’ll never happen again, please don’t make me spend Thanksgiving/Christmas away from you and the kids”?  They need help year round, but now is a perfect time to give.  And find out how truely blessed we are. That will definitely give you something to be thankful for. 

Its not that bad. I don’t think I’m going to lose any weight this week, but I don’t think I’ve gained any either.  It is so hard to stay off the scale.  Its been cold here, so I haven’t gotten outside much, but I’m digging out the winter clothes so I can get back to walking.  My children have been uncooperative about my work out. I have tried getting up early, staying up late, and getting them to do it with me.  Each approach has little victories and defeats.  I have noticed a differnce in the way some of my pants fit because well, they fit.  So that’s new and exciting… pants that fit, instead of pushing my fat up to make me look like I have two small breasts up top and one large breast in the middle.:)  Why do you think we lose weight from the good parts first?  My boobs and butt are already a source of angst.  My husband and I were talking a few nights ago, and I told him I had lost 20 lbs., and he was less than enthusiastic.  He says good, so how much more do you have to lose?  And then adds, your not going to lose your butt are you? Cause I love your butt.  I was irritated to say the least.  I was so tempted to yell, but I didn’t.  I said I have about 80-100 lbs to lose, and that I would surely keep in mind that he likes my ass fat.  Hell, since I have so much control over my weight, why don’t I just tell the cellulite on my hips to travel on up and fill out my breasts and lips? After that, I’ll cure cancer and annihalate world hunger with a snap of my fingers. He’s not a bad guy, he just sticks his foot in his mouth alot.  I guess we are opposites attract on that, because while I’m pretty outspoken on here, I tend to be very cautious about what I say in person.  Aw men, what would we do without them? Who would push us? My husband always says “if you want Erin to do something, tell her she can’t”.  Well, this is one of those times.  Maybe he has been with me so long he thinks I can’t, but he’s wrong. I can and I will.  I’ve lost 20 lbs in just over a month. I know that is too fast, but I am really trying to make lifstyle choices instead of just food choices.  So nanana boo boo. Stick that in your pipe and smoke it, shelton.

Well, its getting to be that time again… the husband will be home in 12 days.  I am suffering from the same old mix of emotions.  I will be so happy to see him, I’ve really been missing him.  But I also have alot of apprehension, because I tend to eat more when he’s home.  He eats alot, and it usually isn’t very good for him.  He also knocks me off my  excercise routine, because its harder to get “me” time when he’s home.  Its hard enough with three kids, school, and all the lovely people who think since I’m a “stay at home mom” that I sit all day watching tv.  So, I’m going to really try to get him to join me, I think he might. His weight has really been bothering him.  Hopefully he will eat the different foods we’ve been trying too.  We eat alot of turkey and chicken and lean meat now, and shelton is a very meat and potatoes kind of guy.  I made hamburgers with actual beef last week, and my kids and I were all like, this tastes funny.  I actually thought something was wrong with the meat, until I realized how long it had been since I’d had a real beef burger.  But I’ve been having several brain blips like that recently.  I think its because I’ve been sick and my head has been hurting alot. I’ve had smoker’s cough this past week and thought I was going to hack up a lung… terrible. (I don’t smoke, so this was particularly distressing)  My kids were staying at arms length from me, eyeing me like I had the bubonic plague…Ring around the rosey, a pocket full of poseys… But I had a good weekend, spent the night with my sister, and got to see mom and dad in the same place and everyone came away with all their appendages.  I was so proud of them, acting like adults and everything… they grow up so fast:)  Any way, I have been working on my thanksgiving menu, trying to cut some of the fat and calories, some of it works, some of it I’m just gonna have to eat less. It’ll all work out! I hope everyone is having a great day!

Ok, first I want to say how happy I am to have joined the wildcats! I also lost 5 pounds this week, which I am very happy about. I think most of this is water, simply because I have really started to watch how much i drink and I think I was dehydrated alot, so that leads to bloating.  I have lost some actual weight though, and I can tell this because i had to go to the college yesterday, and I put on my fat suit and I didn’t feel like I needed to grease myself before I did this.  if you don’t know what a fat suit is, I’ll explain.  It looks like a bathing suit, but you actually want it to be smaller.  its made of nylon, spandex(God bless the person who invented that), and sometimes has boning inlaid in it.  It is sometimes reffered to as a girdle, but its a little different. my husband reffers to it as 1. my false advertisement suit, and 2. the spandex chastity belt, cuase he knows hes not getting any if I’ve got it on. It is defeintly NOT easy access.  Any way, its main purpose is to just smooth you out, so if its coming up easier, then there is not as much to smooth out.  YAY!  Things are going well for me. Still haven’t gotten my computer fixed, so I’m limited to tuesdays and thursdays, but absence makes the heart grow fonder, right?  Switching gears, I was reading this girls blog about babies, and I wrote a comment, actually a monolouge, but I started just crying. Which would be ok if I was home and no one could see me weeping over the keyboard. But I’m at school, and it is highly odd to see some woman bawling over a blog.  Its getting to be that time of the month, so I’m all crazy. This time is hard for me, cause I want to eat everything in sight. But I have been doing well, I stayed up till 2 cleaning and trying to get stuff done. I know I need sleep, but I woke up ready to go.  So maybe I just needed a push. I hope everyone is doing well and having a great day! i’ll see ya’ll on tuesday!

DO hissy fits count as workouts? I’m not talking about like one of those scream and punch something and then I’m done things.  I’m talking about a yelling-pacing-wanting to pull someone through the phone-having to run a mile and do some yoga that cuts off my breathing- hissy fit.  This was my workout yesterday.  The cable company fianlly graced me with thier presece long enough to get my cable phone and internet in.  After 4 HOURS of dodging this guy cause I’m sick and keeping my babies out of the way, my laptop won’t work.  The internet explorer is messed up.  I was like WHAT THE CORNBREAD HELL?! STUPID VISTA!!!!! AUGH!!! It sucks so much.   MAybe this doesn’t sound that bad, but I have ben fighting to get the cable compnay to my house for two months, and this computer has been nothing but trouble since the warranty expired.  I ate too much friday and saturday, and I have found that I do better when I can get on here, and when I can listen to my favorite radio station.  So, that’s tuesdays and thurdays for now.  But I am back on track today, will weigh tomorrow, hopefully I didn’t gain.  Of course, if I did, I could just throw another hissy fit and work some of it off… 

YAY! I actually lost a pound.  Maybe that’s not so great for a week, but after halloween, I’ll take it!  My son cracked me up this morning, cause I was putting on my leg weights, and he asked me what they were. I told him and he looks at me like I’ve sprouted horns and asks me ” you going to take me to school with those on?”  I told him yes, and he looked like he was going to faint.  I am so glad to talk to ya’ll again. This whole internet thing is driving me crazy. They came again yesterday to put in my phone, cable internet, guess what? they have to come back monday! They are like cable nazis.  They don’t want to fix my stuff cause it new construction.  Lazy monkeys.  I’ve really been on myself this week. I’m not going to meet my goal of the twenty pounds before hubby comes home, but thats ok.  I hope by next year, we can have a big anniversary party.  next year is ten years.  Our anniversary was sunday, so I missed him alot that day. But I didn’t depression eat, and that is great! I would really like to renew our vows and actually get to wear a dress.  We eloped, so my family wasn’t there, and sometimes I wish we had done the wedding thing.  He’s very practical and says its silly, but after 10 years, he’s going to do what it takes to make me happy.  If that means a suit and dancing with me (he doesn’t dance. he can, he just won’t) Well by jimmeny, that’s what he’s going to do.  Ok, enough. I have to go get my girls from my sister’s house, she’s kept them a few days to give me time to work on school and the house. I got my bedroom done, it looks like a jungle! I love it all brown wood and exotic plants.. and a great place for my yoga mat and other stuff. It’s very zen.

I haven’t been able to write for a few days, and I’ve really been missing ya’ll! I never thught I would get so attached so quickly, but this website really gets me motivated.  Just knowing there are peole who check up on me and peole I can encourage is great! Ok, bad news first, didn’t do so well friday and saturday, but I was fabuluous sunday and monday! I’m going walking with my sister in a few, I wish she would join, been trying to get her on.  Halloween was hard for me, I ate wayyyy too many sweets, and just couldn’t get going.  I know this one is short, but I gotta go, tomorrow is weigh-in day, so hopefully I’ll have some good news!  

First, I want to thank all of you who gave me responses to my questions, there are some brilliantly creative people on this site.  I did well yesterday, I only ate about 1600 calories, I didn’t excersize as much as I would have liked to, but the toe has got me down.  I never realized how much we bend and flex them when we do anything.  It has been especially devastating to my yoga practice.  No balancing, no happy baby(one of my favorites) I’m not real sure what happy baby is good for except to make me smile.  My sun salutation is more like how ya doin? Cause I have to skip steps and the other steps are haphazardly ostrich like.  Husband and family are good, husband is in better mood, cause its only a month till he gets to come home.  This is a little unsettling to me, cause I really wanted to lose a noticable amount of weight before he got here, but the toe won’t be better before then. I know everyone is fussing at me about losing weight too quickly, but I just want to lose enough to get me motivated.  Anyway, enogh of the downy dumps, there is good news.  First of all, the guy in my class that went all crazy one day, went crazy on the teacher last thursday. I know this doesn’t sound like good news, but I figure at least if he does go psycho one day, we will have proof that he was crazy when we go on trial for ducttaping him to his chair and locking him in the closet.  I know I haven’t really blogged about him, but here’s the basic jest of thngs, I volunteer for the domestic violence place. Been doing that since I was in my teens.  This guy, his name is gavin, walks in class the first day and WOO WOO! DING! My bells start going off.  First of all, his girlfriend and he take classes together, like all of them, he talks for her, and the girl he went off on first, he talked to her like she was a dog…He makes my skin crawl.  Ok I have actual good news too.  I found out last night that Ryan Reynolds is older than me, so if my husband and I don’t work out, I still have a back up plan. I know he’s married, and his wife is hot, but please, I’m Erin people! Who wouldn’t want me?  I was so lost thinking he was younger than me (I have sworn off younger guys, bad story) Then my sister was like uh uh he is like 33, so I’m good.  Ok, have to go to class now, my skin is crawling already…